Thank you for all the lovely words
He's been for bloods today and his BUN has come down from 50 to 45 but that's still way higher than its ever been. His creatinine is off the chart at over 600 (the lowest it's been is 124 and the previous highest 223). I asked the vet what he would do if Buster was his dog and he was totally honest and said he would consider euthanasia but that he wasn't saying that should be today but probably within a few weeks.
He's outside playing at the moment and has just eaten, is also drinking ok again at the moment.
I'm so conflicted because part of me feels whilst he's eating (albeit only small amounts - he hasn't lost anymore weight since Tuesday), drinking, playing and willing to go for walks that it's not the right time but the other side of me knows that when he's no longer doing these things it's because he's really suffering and I don't want that.
The vet is going to do a day of fluid therapy as an outpatient tomorrow then take bloods to see how effective it is. I guess I will see what tomorrow brings but I know I can't keep taking him in for that - once a month maybe but if it were more is that just too much to keep putting him through?
I'm so very sorry you are going through this. I know how difficult it is to make the decision to end their lives. What a precious pup you've got there.
I've had to make that decision more times than I've liked. However, as others have stated, you know in your heart of hearts when the right time is. They have a way of telling you when it's just too much.
Follow your heart and gut. Will keep you all in my prayers.