As I take a break from cleaning - All these years I denied being a hoarder to my husband, but it is something about books and papers I just can't throw out! - Do I really need to keep a college paper written in 1982??#$%!
Thank-you all for your prayers and friendship. I initially spent most of my time post-hospital communicating on FB. Lots of soapy friends there too, but my mentors and original soap family is here. To be honest, I stayed away initially because I really didn't think I would be able to soap anymore. Reading about the challenges; the amazing pictures and interesting diversity that just seems to work here literally caused me pain.
My long-term goal was to become a good enough soaper to create a fragile skin recipe that hopefully I could wholesale to assisted living or upscale long-term care facilities. This forum always challenged me to be better. When I couldn't safely manage my ingredients - strength and dis-coordination deficits, I packed away my workshop and started working on a spreadsheet for my husband so that when he sold everything off, he could at least capture a fraction of my investment. (I've since deleted that file
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I come back here grateful and newly inspired. My husband caught me with 2 orders of FO's that I hadn't even opened before my first surgery. We negotiated that if I shredded 2 lawn and garden sized bags of papers, he would help me make some soap this weekend...... I have 1/2 a bag to go! Christmas/Holiday soaps; gifts are going to be well cured, 'cause I'm a soapin' the 4th of July!! Now the only challenge is limiting my choices... Hubby's generosity did not include clean-up.....
My next surgery is on 7/9 - I had an apt with my surgeon yesterday and even though again the mass is large, she feels confident about a positive outcome.
I have my Faith, my belief in my awesome family and medical team and the support and prayers of all of the friends I have made. It truly does not get better than this. If I have any regrets, it's that it took me so long to realize how good my life actually is.
Thank-you all. I look forward to participating in this forum for many years to come, Cindy