I say breathe.. slow down a bit.. be patient.. and take a step back and make a basic soap first.
All very hard things to do but you want to gain some confidence and making some very simple recipes in easy molds will allow you to get the basic movements down first before you get into trickier ones.
Exactly. Start with small batches of the easiest versions. Make a batch of soap with no highly unsaturated fats/oils like olive, peanut, palm, corn, sunflower, safflower--just those high in saturation like coconut, tallow, even hydrogenated fats like Crisco. There are plenty of recipes like that out there. You can even find them in "1 bar" quantities. No perfume, color, anything fancy. You'll say, but that's not even as good as I can buy! Well, duh! That's how it is learning crafts in general, and I bet you've experienced that with other things; it's just that depending on the ease of the craft, you may not have wound up with things that were total waste on the first go-round or two. Eventually you'll get enough familiarity that if you stay interested, you'll wind up with what's not only fun for the making, but also worthwhile product to use.
I've been going thru this with fireworking. I practiced a long time with making simpler works, to the point where some of them (like aerial shells) were more spectacular than my friends could buy for consumer use, but I bored them with lots of flops first, and I started with the very simplest items that wouldn't impress people who are used to even common commercial items. Lately I've practically started all over by graduating to sky rocketry, and still have a high ratio of those that don't get off the ground, that blow up, or that fly horizontally, or even don't ignite at all, to those that go into the air as they're supposed to.
You may get there. It may take you a long time or a little, depending on how much time you have to devote and how intense your interest is.
Of course it's always possible you'll end the way I did with piano playing (which hobby my parents tried to convince me was my idea) when I quit, realizing it wasn't worth my effort to get good enough, and I never looked back. It's not like there's any hobby out there that's for everybody. Or you may find it worth your while to return to it after a period in a fresh frame of mind--possibly many times--after some time off from it.
Just looking at the craft hobbies you listed--painting, sewing, crochet, knitting, jewelry making--I see that most of them have something in common that makes them easier than making soap: immediate feedback. With most of them, you can see moment by moment as you're making an item how it's turning out. I know that with some media in painting, appearance changes after a while so you don't get exactly accurate feedback right away, but even with those media you can see approximately how it's turning out as you do it; not with soap. Similarly, you can make mistakes in knitting that you don't realize until a bit after you've done them, but it's still not as blind as it is with soap making.
Another thing about those other hobbies that doesn't apply to making soap is that you can put most such projects down at any point and resume them from there. So soap making has some difficulties a lot of crafts don't, so it's not surprising that many people would have more failures in it at first.
