When my husband passed away, I thought I would die. I was so mad at him for leaving me! I know irrational!! He was my best friend, and my second husband, we were married for 32 years. When I met him I was a single mom raising a son since he was 18 months old, and I went back & finished college, & I never ever wanted to get married again! I was single for nine years and the brother of a friend of mine walked into my life, it changed my view, and a few years later we got married. I know for a fact, that I will not get married again! When you have the best partner, at my age all the men want is someone to cook, clean & take care of them! No Thank You!! I enjoy being single. I can do what I want, go to bed when I want, and eat what I want...I had Irish oatmeal with cherries, blueberries, and raisins for dinner last night! If I can't afford something in the soaping or sewing world I want I start saving for it, I am not made out of money, I drive a 22 y.o. Miata that I love and I have a house payment and all that goes with it, it needs new windows and flooring, I save, I want a new or used mechanical Jukie sewing machine, and I am saving for it. All in good time, I finally got my first wire soap cutter last year & I still haven't made a bar of soap, hopefully, that will be next week..had to get the soaping area the way I wanted it first. All in good time. I still have a box to make for a silicone mold, but it has been so cold here in Wisconsin that I can't go out in the garage and use the saw because my hands get so cold they won't work, I could ask my son, but I won't. I want to do it myself.