op - your experience makes me smile because its somewhat similar to mine.
I had gotten a "beginners" book about soapmaking from a friend. The first recipe that caught my eye was for a goat milk and honey shampoo bar. It was an EPIC fail, because I used fresh goat milk and it certainly wasn't cold enough to counteract the lye, and then I added honey and the whole thing was just a total and absolute disaster. I had also purchased some random fragrance oil or essential oil on amazon. It was so bad, like there was false trace, the soap was a dark brown (due to scorching I imagine) and there was an entire puddle of liquid (oil I assume) at the top. I figured I could just runoff the residual liquid and use the soap underneath...I'm lucky I didn't burn off my skin!
BUT, that fail didn't make me want to give up. 95% of the time, if I'm not good, or at least competent right away, I don't want to do it again (please see me trying to ride a bike again after I turned 30). But with even that first horribly failed batch of soap, all I wanted to do was try again, and again, and again. My first two batches were unutterable fails.
For me, it helped a lot to research online and through forums like this. I'd start with a simple recipe without any sort of goat milk or honey. People on this site are so very willing to help with recipes and you can find them on youtube as well. I formulate my own, but I think you just need to get a W under your belt at this point. Its really hard to keep doing something when you invest your time and don't see anything for it.
ETA - I don't want to give the impression that you cannot or should not work with fresh goat milk, I see from the comments that people can have great success with fresh goat milk, but I think for me, a new soaper going off a beginner book....was part of the reason the whole thing went so very, very wrong.
I haven't touched that beginners book in a long time, and I now think it was more of an aspirational book with really nice pictures, than an instructive text for beginners.
Anyhoo, keep with it and good luck!