So I did something crazy yesterday..

[Nanooo48]

so guys..I’m not a blogger. I own an Apple computer for a year and a half and don’t know how to use it yet. I use my phone for everything. I’m like a behind in times 34 year old. I don’t know what happened to me. Sorry. But I’m going to get personal here for a moment. Purely because I’m just not ready to go out into the real world with this all yet.
Yesterday my sister lost her baby. Her baby girl Iris we were looking forward to so much with such loving and hoping hearts. The day after Christmas my sister lost another baby girl full term to still birth.. born sleeping. So this was her little rainbow baby. It’s been soul crushing.
So my sister for a long time now has been a part of all of these groups on line and I’ve just never made sense of talking to strangers about my problems? In fact I’m not even sure who I’m writing to right now and it’s a little weird but I just feel like my heart is throbbing out of my body and I have nowhere for these words to go right now.
So anyway.. with all the waiting since I am out of state and unable to leave to be with her I found myself pacing my apartment waiting, holding my phone, driving myself insane with my thoughts wishing I could have a glass of wine or something to calm down but do to my own health issues and medications I have to be on I can’t handle alcohol very well lol. BUT I did remember I picked up a bottle of Berrywine scent from bramble berry and had an idea. Not sure if this is a major soaping no no, but I sure do hope it comes out nice. I tried to put my heart and ALL my mind into it for the time being. And I hope it gelled all the way through. I even built it a little cardboard house for the night with towel to retain as much heat as possible. Trying for the darkest wine color possible. The very ends look iffy but the cut will tell I guess. So tell me. Would you gasp in horror at this soap? Or think as a wino ohhh how cute and grab this up. Lol cuz I think it was cute haha.
Listen. I’m sorry for venting here but I’m glad I did. I don’t really know ANY of you so I’m sorry. But if you pray my family could truly use some prayers right now. We have all been going through so much and could really use a ray of sunshine and soon.... I will be with my sister again thanksgiving. And it can’t come soon enough....

PS I did have some cracking in a couple areas (bummer)

 

[Saponificarian]

So sorry for your loss. I can’t begin to imagine your pain but I am sending you happy thoughts.

Your soap does look ‘winey’ in a pretty way. Well done.

 

[mommycarlson]

Oh my, my eyes filled up with tears reading your post. I am so sorry for your family's losses. My heart hurts for your sister, I had a friend who had a stillbirth in 1990. We had all four of our babies together and I was still pregnant with my youngest when she lost hers. It was heart wrenching. Thoughts and prayers for you and your family.

I have made wine soap before, even used that same FO. I never would have thought of putting a cork in it It looks lovely, I hope it was therapeutic for you. HUGS

 

[cmzaha]

Prayers and good wishes to you and your family during these heartbreaking times. Sometimes we just cannot understand the Big Guy Above and his reasons. Hope your sis makes it through the depressive times that surely come with such tragedies, and does not give up. I had a neighbor that lost 4 babes in a row and doc told her no more tries. They adopted and approx a year later perfect beautiful twins came and one more little girl a couple of yrs later. We just cannot know the plan...

Your wine soap looks great other than questioning the corks stuck in it. I and my customers hate thing stuck in soap and the cork will probably break off in the soap. Wine soap is very nice with the added lather from all the sugars in the wine which is also why it overheated enough to crack.

Well wishes again to all of you. Good you will get to be with your sister soon, but I can understand not soon enough...

 

[dixiedragon]

Praying for you and your sister. You are of course welcome here, but you may also find it beneficial to post to forums dealing with loss, such as Babycenter.

I think your soaps are super cute and can't wait to see them cut! Where did you get the corks? I can't really tell how big they are - my only concern is that are they wider than a bar of soap?

I think as far as holding and using the soap, the corks aren't going to be scratchy or harsh (like dried rosemary for example) and won't clog your drain!

 

[SusanP]

I am saying prayers for you all. How horrible!

I saw you wine picture and fell in love. First, because I have never really wanted to try it and love that other people do, and second the corks! That brought a smile to my face, as it was a wonderful idea.

 

[Misschief]

My heart aches for you and, especially, your sister. Please remember that there are real people behind all the names and faces. We've all gone through things in our lives and we've all leaned on online friends when we didn't have anyone else to lean on. That's the beauty of online families. Support is support.

Love the soap. I do hope it helped ease the pain just the tiniest bit.

 

[saratk]

If I saw this on sale somewhere, I would not gasp in horror but my brow would furrow in confusion. I think the cork makes a hole in the bar of soap for no aesthetic or practical purpose and, when the bar of soap is kept in a humid shower, there's the likelihood of the cork getting moldy before the soap's been used. I like the color otherwise!

 

[scard]

How very sad. Your family must be absolutely devastated, I hope that ray of sun shines on all of you soon.
As far as the soap goes what a clever idea, I love it!

 

[amd]

Love your soap! Soaping is better therapy than drinking.

So sorry for your family's loss. When I was pregnant with my daughter, the doctor discovered a heart defect, he said she wouldn't live after birth. I went to the specialist 2 hours away every month for a 3D ultrasound, every month the same thing. My last appointment was on a Friday, I was due Monday. He looked and looked at the ultrasound, left the room for 45 minutes and then came back. Told me that the defect was completely gone, not a trace, and that I should go home and get ready for a baby - and to stay pregnant as long as possible 'cuz she had a lot of growing to do. I went 11 days over my due date. Two hours before my daughter was born, a little girl was stillborn in the room next to me. I say a prayer for that family every year on the birthday, apologizing for their loss and praying for their healing, and thankful that I get to have my little girl. I'll be keeping you and your sister in prayer for healing.

 

[msunnerstood]

I just picked up a bottle of wine to make wine soap myself so its not crazy.

I am sorry for everything that you and your family are going through

 

[szaza]

What a tragic story! I can't even begin tot imagine what you're going through.. But it's also beautyful to see how you channeled your emotions through sosoapmaking. The result looks absolutely wonderful and I hope it gives you some joy in these dark times. Take care!

 

[Nanooo48]

Thank you all for your kind comments and much needed prayers. My sister is still waiting a very detailed hysterectomy. There is a large team of doctors that need to be involved in this surgery so it’s very scary. They have pushed it til tomorrow so it’s like agony all around... they have always had plans to adopt. They still do. With time and healing...

As for these dang corks. They are super cute. Half the people who want my soaps never want to use them! And always want to use them for decoration so I always have that in mind (reluctantly) when I’m designing them in my mind so that’s where the corks came in. They are close to the top and I made sure of it so they can be taken out when ready to use. It will not take much to pop the bad boys out of there. As for someone who asked. I bought the corks at Michaels! They come in a variety of sizes so I used the smaller sizes in the container..

 

[OldHippie]

Just ignore the insensitive, confused, aesthetics challenged, mycophobic critic.
I'm also eager to see your soap cut. I always enjoy seeing imaginative new ways to represent a theme. The surprise is part of the appeal.

 

[cmzaha]

Just ignore the insensitive, confused, aesthetics challenged, mycophobic critic.
I'm also eager to see your soap cut. I always enjoy seeing imaginative new ways to represent a theme. The surprise is part of the appeal.

As usual I suppose you are referring to me And just for the record I am not confused, insensitive, or aesthetics challenged or a mycophobic critic, whatever that is. Mycophobia refers to fear of mushrooms. That was incredibly rude, and was not the place for it...

I am so sorry to hear about the upcoming surgery, that takes away choices. Again prayers for all of you

 

[OldHippie]

As usual I suppose you are referring to me

No, don't flatter yourself, I was not referring to you.

I am not confused, insensitive, or aesthetics challenged or a mycophobic critic

So then, why did you think that I was referring to you?

Now you're making be look back to see why you would think that. I don't pay attention to names much. I just call it as I see it as I go along.

 

[artemis]

Guys, I don't think this is the place for an argument to break out. Can we please just drop it? Thanks.

 

[cmzaha]

yep and i agree

 

[dibbles]

I am so sorry for your family. It is an incredibly sad loss. Sending hugs.

 

[SunRiseArts]

I am sorry you and your sister are going through this. I lost 2 babies in the womb. One at 5 months. I understand the pain.

Your soap is great. I have done exactly the same soap without the corks on top. I used merlot wine and the same very scent from BB!

I would love to see it cut!

I still have a couple of bars of that one.